Everybody has experienced it once, the feeling of somebody watching them, looking at the, staring at them. It’s an invasion of privacy. But what are they actually looking at.....
The bell rings for class, god I hate this lesson, we used to be fine but I don't know what happened. He just doesn’t even talk to me anymore. He just sits behind me and doesn't say a word. All lesson, I can feel he’s eyes burrowing into the back of my skull. He’s always looking, but he never says why. It don't just stop at this class, it’s all day at school too but this class is the worse cause he sits right behind me. The stare is intense. I can hear he’s little gasps for air. What is he looking at?
We used to be such good friends; some would even say a bit more then friends. But i have no idea what happened. We used to talk about everything. Maybe I freaked him out with something, I don't know. But we have drifted apart and hardly talk, well in fact never talk. I used to ask him what he was looking at but now I don't. Sometimes it gets too much, I want to scream at him but that will change nothing. He still there, eyes staring at me.
At first he used to still sit with us and just glance my way but at least we still spoke sometimes. He began to get more nervous, he stuttered more till he just gave up and stopped talking. He’s smile gone now, now he just looks worried or worse scared, but as he stare has intensified the distance has increased to and so has the look of terror. I just wished he didn't look at me in pure horror. He so weird
Oh my god...Just stop. What are you looking at! This is making me so stressed. Stop it I can't take it no more, just stop!
The bell sounds, and fear seeps in. I used to love this class, I sit behind a beautiful girl who was the first person to actually give me some time, I knew I should have got close to her but she was something wonderful. But now this class is my hell. I still sit behind her, but now I’m scared for my friend. We used to be so close and we used to have fun, I was falling for her, but now I'm too scared to get near her. Every time I get close to somebody this happens but yet, I did try to not talk to her, but she was special, I liked her a lot some would say loved her, But because of me I can see her downfall and it slowly creeping closer, and there’s nothing I can do. Every time I see her, my eyes widen, I'm sure she has noticed, but I can see them, edging closer every day.
They are almost touching her now, Last time I saw them this close I never saw that person again, but I have no idea what they do to them. But my parents made me move areas and I was home-schooled for years, I had to beg them to let me go to school. I promised them I wouldn’t make friends but with her I couldn’t resist. They warned me. I was so scared I backed away but it is no good. I don’t want to move again, I don’t want to be home-schooled again. I just wanted a friend.
So now, I don’t talk to her. Hoping that will help but I just watch them edging closer, till one day I won’t see her anymore and they will have what they have been after. Then the rumours’ will start, and the fingers will point. But the people don’t understand that it is not my fault. This was not done by me. I just see them when you can’t, but you have always felt them. Even you know they are there, your demons, slowly coming to get you.
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